He nods and gives her that polite smile that makes women drop like flies. Your party is right this way.” But maybe I can be a little annoyed that she’s practically purring? If Nathan wants this beautiful woman, that’s his prerogative. I sigh then inwardly growl as my jealousy rises up and tells me to pick apart this woman’s looks to find a flaw that will make me feel better about myself. Her eyes rake over Nathan’s body, and the sheer want displayed in her dilated pupils is uncomfortable for everyone. The hostess finally notices us and rushes to her little podium. His face is chiseled stone as he stares straight ahead, ignoring my glare. He knows not to do this, and yet here he is, breaking another rule tonight. I look up at him with a scowl because my body is getting far too excited about our proximity right now. But Nathan grasps my elbow lightly and tugs me close to his side. I do what I always do in situations like this and take two big steps away from him so I don’t get in the way of his bachelor availability. They know him, they want him, and they will do anything to get him. The restaurant is a giant cocktail of whispers and stares. This truly is the great Nathan Donelson in the flesh! I feel like it would be easier if I just ran in front of Nathan with a megaphone and yelled, Attention everyone! No, your eyes are not deceiving you. The moment the restaurant doors open, several heads turn and do a double take. “But I will pay you back,” I say, breaking first. He nods once, not looking as happy as I would have anticipated. “Thank you for caring about me that much. “Listen, I still hate that you went behind my back and paid my rent, but…completely off the record…” I smile. “Of course! I just-” I need a change of subject. “Are you alright?” he asks after he’s purchased a parking ticket (he refuses to use the valet because he says it only draws more attention to him) and we’re walking toward the restaurant. I’m afraid my face is showing emotions it shouldn’t. I’ve read studies about that too! I was worried there for a minute that you meant…” It feels too uncomfortable to say it out loud, also maybe a little pathetic. I let the air out of my lungs in one big rush, pretending I’m relieved so I can maintain the status quo. It has to! I need to sit my sad little heart down and give it a stern talking to. That’s all we’ll ever be, and that has to be enough for me. That’s more realistic and yet another reason to remind myself not to think of Nathan as anything other than a friend. His game? He’s celibate for the sake of football? Oh.
I’m only celibate during the season because it helps my game.” “You were so terrified there for a minute. “Look at your face,” he says through a soft laugh. He chuckles, a familiar playfulness washing over him again, and all hopeful thoughts halt.
Those words mixed with the night and the fact that he bought my studio and we spend nearly every day together…it all suddenly holds so much implication, and…could this be it?! Could he mean. I didn’t think he and I had any secrets, but now I’m learning he has two big ones! How many more are there? Why would you be celibate?” I NEED TO KNOW! There’s something he’s still not telling me, and it’s bothering me. “You could have anyone you wanted at the snap of your fingers. “Because,” I say emphatically like that’s enough of an answer.
“Why are you making this such a big deal?” Nathan sees my wide eyes and rumbles out a short chuckle. What’s happening?! Why am I reacting this way? It changes nothing really-except I feel like everything I knew has changed tonight. That doesn’t mean we’ve done anything physical.” “You’re at my house a lot in the mornings too.
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